The Run In (Part 4)

The clock read 4:02 a.m. and I couldn't sleep. All I could do was think about my ex and how I had really come to the point where I finally got it...us...what used to be and what could never be again. (but hey that's another blog..for another day)

I nodded off (finally for 27 minutes) and before I knew it my alarm was going off. My eyes were pink from not sleeping, my hair was matted, and I looked completely awful. Going to work just didn't seem logical, but I went anyway.

.....at 1 p.m. Q's named appeared on my caller i.d...I debated answering because I was still upset that he had driven off (twice).

I answered...

Him: hey..
Me: hey
Him:...are you busy..I'm by your office..I wanted to see if we could talk.
Me: Yea..I'll be down in 5 minutes.

...As I walked toward the elevator I said a silent prayer that this wasn't our "break up" talk...(altho we're not together officially..but u know what I mean)


I slid into the familiar leather seats and found it very hard to look at him (why is it when you're mad at your man they look sooooo good or does that just happen to me?)

Anyway...


Him: Look...first of all I just want to apologize to you for...everything. I shouldn't have acted the way I did at the movies and last night when I stopped by your spot. I'm not gonna front tho..that dude shouldn't have been at your place like that and I hope you can understand why.

Me: You're right he shouldn't have been there and it won't happen again. I do need to know tho Q...what's going on with you and your ex. Please don't have me thinking your over her if you're not. Be honest I can take it.

Him: I will always have love for her. That will never change. Just like if I left you alone right now and walked away...that doesn't mean I just stop caring about you. That's not how it works. We had a bad break up..like I said before we hurt each other. I'm not gonna lie she did stomp on my heart..and seeing her with that dude was a shock. Imagine if you hadn't seen your ex in a long ass time and then just bump into him like that. It brought back alot of bad memories...if anything I was just in shock. Believe me when I tell you I am done with her..I've moved past it and she has too.

Me: Ok, I believe you (I had no more strength to argue with him...I decided to leap out on faith and actually trust him)


::we just sat there in his warm car, holding hands, with the music playing softly. I put my head on his shoulder and finally fell sleep::

I had a really...really...really long lunch break.


ps. I know there is still something he's not telling me...but what's done in the dark comes out in the light. Right?

Right...