The Seasons Will Change

It's funny how you think you have it all figured out until God really shows you who God is. Forever ago [well it seems like it now] a certain group of people really hurt me in the worse way possible. They lied on my name, my character, and tried their best to destroy me, but it didn't work. I was so devastated that I would cry myself to sleep at night wondering why they were doing this and what possible lesson God was trying to teach me.


My heart ached everytime I replayed the entire situation in my head. The people who I had thought were my friends had been rooting for me to fail. It was a different type of a heart break, one that I will never find the words to explain. The pain was so deep that I knew it would be impossible for me to get over. However, everytime I began to get down, God would scoop me right back up. Impossible to God is nothing.


2 years ago...almost to this exact date...

My eyes were burning from crying the night before. One of my best friends from college was explaining everything to me that was happening while I was out of town. "They're at it again girl, now they've taken it to the Internet..this is unbelievable." I sighed heavily, pulled over into an empty parking lot and put my head against the wheel. I had done absolutely nothing wrong, but disagreed with them on one thing and refused to do it, now they were trying to turn the world against me.


The other line beeped and it was an LA number..."Hi sweetheart, this is so and so from xxxxx magazine and we want to feature..." I smiled...wiped my tears and drove home. The next day I got a call from an incredible executive producer whom I admired (still do) and was told that he'd like me to come study under him for the remainder of my senior year at a huge network. At that moment I looked up to God and let it go. What else could I do? Cry? Worry? or just step out on faith.


Well I chose faith.


Although I was hurt, I knew that God would take care, and that in the end I would prevail. They did their best to break me, but faith and amazing friends held me together. I wouldn't have had it any different, because if I did I wouldn't have been able to get the lesson and move on.


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I woke up this morning to find the sincerest letter of apology waiting for me in my inbox. The letter was from the ring leader of the group that hurt me so bad. I'm not going to spell out exactly what it said...or even why the person apologized all this time later.


However, I will say that when you step out on faith, ANYTHING is possible...even forgiveness.


See the seasons do change:)



-SweetHeart