(Photo: Archan Nair)I feel like I was lost everytime I think about the situation, about what happened, about what was, about what I let be. Why did it take so long for me to come to my senses? Out of all the things you said to me, the way you hurt me, the way you made me feel. I let you degrade me, I let you talk down to me, I let you treat me that way. For six long years my heart ached. I fought for you. I hurt others who loved me...just for you. I was fighting a losing battle of trying to make something work that was never meant to be. When you met me I was a little girl..with little girl thoughts..and a little girl mind. What I hate most is that I let you in...you saw me grow..you saw me transform. Against my better judgement I let you take credit for my growth..when the reality is I hadn't grown at all...because you wouldn't let me. I allowed you to hold me back, to consume my thoughts, and to make me feel bad about who I was. It was as if I enjoyed the imprisonment that you held me in for so long. After 6 years, thousands of tearful nights, and weeks of pain. I put my little girl thoughts and my little girl mentality away and walked towards my future.
For the first time in life...I felt like a woman.
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Deep...just know that you deserve the best!
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