When You Make Plans...God Laughs

I collapsed into my bed when I got home from work on Monday night. No, I more like dived into it. I laid on my back and took a deep breath trying to think of nothing, and like clock work my phone rang. I wanted to ignore it so bad, but it was one of my good friends calling to check on me.
"What's up babygirl?" he said a little to loudly into the phone. I couldn't help but smile at his voice, no matter what was going on in life this dude was always happy and it was contagious.

"I don't know what I want anymore," I confessed to him out of no where. My mind had been racing for weeks about all the opportunties that were coming my way out of no where. Although I was grateful, I just couldn't make any decisions. Days before I stared at my computer screen reading about another job offer...I just stared at it and clicked the x button. I didn't want to think, I couldn't think, I felt like a time bomb was ticking away and I had to decide on everything then and now. The problem was I'm not sure where exactly I want to go career wise. I used to have a plan, I had everything all laid out. I was going to move here, work for this company, marry so and so, have a spoiled little girl, and live happily every after.


But as it turns out I couldn't stand living in XXX city (it wasn't what I thought it would be), I'm certainly not going to marry xxx or have any of his children, and I've already worked for xxx company and I have no desire to work for them again. My blueprint for life was totally gone...I had laid it all out..I made plans!

Someone once told me, "When you make plans, God laughs."

I laughed at the time when I heard that, thinking it was a joke, well as it turns out the joke was on me. My friend brought me back to reality when he said in a confident voice, "Stop being so damn scared!"

"What!?!" I exclaimed, "I'm not scared, what are you talking about?" He explained to me how I was always running from everything. "That's what you do," he said "you run from things when you have to make a decision, when you get scared, or when something doesn't go your way, you just run." I sighed, knowing in the back of my mind that he was right.

"Stop being afraid of your own power, hell stop being afraid of your blessings. It's right there for you to reach out and grab but your scared to do it because it wasn't what you planned or what you thought it should be, that's not how life works babygirl. I've watched you grow over the years and your ready. You have nothing holding you back except for yourself. So stop sitting there complaining about what could have been, what should have been, and just go out there and claim what's already yours."


I mentally threw my blueprint in the garbage can and ran to catch up on the path that God had already laid out. Now all I have to do is follow it.